Three steps forward, one step back. Just as I begin getting in the rhythm of things it feels as though my life just crumbles. I don't do it on purpose, I just let the small things get to me. For example, one bad grade gets me very frustrated with myself and then I let it out on other people and I end up just surrounding myself in a circle of negativity. Even worse, a bad week. After a bad week, I always end up feeling like a failure. By nature, I am insanely competitive. I strive to be the best and when I am not, I take it personally. If you need a visual, I very much relate to the character Paris from Gilmore Girls. Ambitious, cut-throat, ISTJ (Introversion, sensing, thinking, judgment) personality type, type 8 (the challenger) enneagram. Although I was in denial of this at first, Paris is me to a T. Just like she does, I know what I want and do what I need to to get there. Yet when I fail, the overthinker in me reminds me that I will just never be as great as I want to be and tha...